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The Healing Consciousness:
A Doctor's Journey to Healing
-Beth Baughman DuPree, MD
Introduction
The air is crisp and damp. The screen door slams shut behind me.
Somehow the same coffee I have been
drinking every morning for years tastes better. The stillness
and serenity are deafening. The only sounds I hear
are those created by cicadas and birds. This has become
my morning song and I begin to breathe in unison with
nature. The lush green grass is covered with dew and my
feet are drenched but the wet feels invigorating. The
stroll to the garden is peaceful. As I approach the pond,
the bullfrog awakens to bellow good morning.
I was missing this link for some time, not realizing
that I needed to be connected to Mother Earth and to
nature in order to nurture my soul. Somehow I was
guided to this land, a piece of timeless history that could
rejuvenate my spirit after a long day’s work. I have been
gifted as a caregiver, yet failed to give care to a most
important person in my life—me. If I am not well and
cared for, I will be unable to care for others, and I’ll be
useless as I try to guide my patients to wellness and
healing.
We now live on a farm we call home. My children,
Tom and Dean, have adjusted to the move and my husband
Joe is seeing the benefits of it for our whole family.
When I came upon this property, my family and friends
thought I was certifiable for even considering a move
from our comfortable modern home to an antique
dwelling. How could we possibly find the time to restore
this property when we are already busy? The buildings
are all in need of repair. They have been standing for
nearly three hundred years and will probably keep
standing until we get around to repairing all of the disorders
and squeaking complaints they have.We are all
playing a role in the restoration of our new home.
The perennial garden needs love and attention, as
does the entire property. I choose not to focus on the
list of things that are broken and need repair; instead I
choose to focus on what is right and healing and perfect
about this place. As I do with my patients, I see the wellness
in the land and the buildings.We will tend to the
“disease” of the property just as I do with my patients,
healing one person at a time, always focusing on what is
healthy about each individual.
My heart warms as I drive down the tree-lined
driveway and find my husband sitting with our two sons
fishing at the edge of our neighbor’s pond. What would
have been a weekend adventure is now an after school
bonus. It is a different way of life than we have known
as a family.We are working together on projects and seeing
the magnificent changes that we can manifest with
our own hands. I am in awe of the beauty that has been
preserved on this amazing piece of land in historic Bucks
County and I find myself continually asking, “How did I
arrive at this destination?”
Although I consider myself a spontaneous individual,
I do take the time to make rational logical decisions. As a
surgeon, that is considered mandatory. I have lived a
rather planned life, knowing where I was headed all the
time. In the past I would set my sight on a goal or a destination,
and make it happen. This is no different than most
other driven individuals in the world. I had a great college
experience. It was a time to mature, become educated and
heal the loss of my only brother. After college I was
accepted to medical school, where I met and married my
husband Joe as I prepared for my future as a surgeon. I
then matched into a great surgical residency program that
taught me the skills I needed to be a general surgeon. I
only had a four-month window in which I could deliver a
child and still complete the program on time. I was able
to make that work, too. I found a beautiful area in which
to practice surgery and raise a family. For many years it
seemed as though I was always working toward an undisclosed
destination. I was working at a frenetic pace and
was nearly spinning out of control, trying to be everything
to everyone who needed me.
It took my beautiful children, friends, and my amazing patients
to teach me that it is truly the journey in life that is so magnificent.
Once I was able to slow down the constant chatter
in my head, I could actually enjoy that which was right
in front of me. As a result I have become a better mother,
a better wife, a better friend and, as a physician, a better
healer. In order to appreciate the life that I was living,
I needed to change in so many ways, yet preserve and
nurture those aspects of myself that really make my
heart sing.
Change is one of the only constants in our lives. It can also
be one of the most difficult things to accept, particularly
when something unexpected comes upon us. Even
when we are given time to prepare for change, the actual
change can be very difficult to accept. Witnessing the
effects our move to a farm had on my young sons—
changing schools and having to make new friends—gave
me a better perspective on this process. I was the one
who really wanted to make this change in our lifestyle.
Although they were afraid of the change, they began to
trust my intuition and judgment.
This process also happens with my patients. When
someone is diagnosed with a disease that is beyond
their control, they must learn to adapt. As I have seen
my children blossom in their new environment and
grow to love the changes in their lives, I know that the
changes I have made in the way I choose to treat my
patients also have been the correct ones. Breast cancer,
like any disease, brings about change that is seldom
anticipated and never desired. My goal as a doctor and
healer is to ease my patient’s passage through this
process of change.
Creating a new and better existence may not seem
to go along with a diagnosis of cancer, yet the level of
adversity cancer brings allows for tremendous growth in
positive ways. Helping to eliminate the fear that surrounds
the disease is often the most daunting task. Not
only do patients manifest this fear, but also the spouse,
parents, caregivers, and children involved. Fear has the
ability to paralyze even the strongest human beings.
Alleviating the fear is often more challenging than treating
the physical cancer. Adversity can be the greatest
teacher the universe can throw at us. If we are unable or
unwilling to be open to change, we will miss the opportunity
to grow and to experience the wonders of truly
living. I have never been afraid of change, but now I welcome
it as yet another opportunity to grow as a spiritual
being.
As physicians, the role we play in our patients’
process of dealing with and recovering from disease is
greater than many of us realize. Somewhere along the
way there has been a “disconnect” in the relationship
between doctors and patients. I have been working diligently
on myself to reconnect with that healing art we
call medicine. I have had some amazing teachers along
my path and continue to be open to what the universe
has in store for me. I have no fear, just loving intention
as I do what I do. Others may not understand my methods,
but the results I see in my patients tell me that I am
truly on the correct path.
Western medicine (surgery, chemotherapy and radiation),
is in my right hand as I treat women and men with
breast disease. Modern technology has given us the ability
to eradicate cancer from the body in some cases. Eastern
healing modalities (Reiki, yoga, massage, meditation, guided
imagery, diet, and wellness) are in my left hand. They
complete the mind, body, spirit connection. Both hands
work in concert to orchestrate the healing process.
If we rely solely on what the West has to offer and
use two right hands in our approach to treat disease,
there is dis-coordination. They do not join together naturally
and we may cure a patient’s disease yet leave them
an empty shell. If we rely solely on Eastern modalities,
often referred to as “alternative,” and discount the wonderful
gifts Western medicine has to offer, we may miss
an opportunity to cure the physical body of its disease.
As a team, the right and left hand can do much to create
and manifest healing and wellness. The marriage of
Eastern and Western medicine can lead to magnificent
results. They enhance or complement one another.
Therefore, I choose to refer to Eastern healing modalities
as complementary as opposed to alternative, as they are a
complement to Western medicine not a replacement for
it.
I am privileged to experience the healing process, on
a daily basis. I tell my patients that the Universe has
many ways in which to communicate with us. When I
give a patient a diagnosis of cancer, it seems to them
that the Universe has chosen to scream. As human
beings, we tend to react to a scream differently than we
react to a whisper. Facing a life-threatening illness, my
patients make changes in their day-to-day lives they may
have otherwise put off to a later date. They quickly learn
to honor themselves and distance themselves from situations
and people who do not enhance their wellbeing.
Many of us are guilty of tolerating situations in our lives
that are unhealthy for us.
When I have the great fortune to give a benign diagnosis
(that the results are not cancer), I remind my
patients that the Universe has just given them a whisper,
and they should evaluate things in their lives they would
have changed had I told them they had cancer. Every
woman or man who has a breast biopsy has a time when
they think, “What will I do differently if I have cancer?”
I have chosen to listen to the whispers in my life.
When we begin to listen to the whispers in our lives,
there will be no need for screaming. I hope patients,
doctors, and all human beings might begin to awaken to
their greatest gifts and find true happiness and love in
every aspect of their lives through embracing The
Healing Consciousness.
The Healing Consciousness is awareness, found deep
within ourselves, where we embrace the eternal nature
of our souls and release all fear of death. Embracing this
awareness, we are free to experience the present
moment fully. Illness and disease teach us to embrace
the moment and live the journey to the fullest for no
one is guaranteed tomorrow.
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The Healing Consciousness
Beth Baughman DuPree, MD
320 pgs. $22.00 ISBN: 0976667843
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